Stuck

Hey guys,

How are you all doing?

I haven’t done my blog for a while now. So I thought it was about time.

I’m in a negative frame of mind at the moment.

Everything seems to be getting on top of me. I have not felt well for a while now, it seems to be one thing after another.

I run my challenges and that seems to be the thing that keeps me going but I fell I don’t do enough with them. I’m not sure?

Also I moved into my bf's house in January. What’s this got to do with n e thing I hear u ask? Well we are complete opposites when it comes to the house. He is very much a hoarder - I am not. I am a clean freak - he is not. I’m finding it extra difficult because it is his house but I can’t stand the way it is. He doesn’t seem to care. I want to come home to a clean and tidy house but he doesn’t care. This is really getting to me - am I being really pathetic? Added on top of this his personal hygiene isn’t that great either. I mean u don’t really notice these things until u live together do u? I have persuaded him to do the bedroom up. So at least I have one nice place to go...but my mummy comes to visit in one week and he has known this since Nov. We have been trying to do the bed since I moved in and its going nowhere he keeps saying it will be finished by next Thursday 9a week today) but there is no chance and this is winding me up to.
I don’t enjoy my work at the moment and something has just happened here that making me even more miserable and I am unsure what to do.

The one good thing is that I see my mum next week and we have a good few girly days to spend together doing really cool things. Usually this is enough for me and my happy go lucky attitude but not recently. I really feel like there is something wrong and something bad is going to happen?

I have my appointment at the hospital next week also - way glad my mum is here for me this time. The last time I had CIN3 type cells in my cervix that had to be removed and the doc f*cked up and stabbed me and I had to get stitches and everything hence me going private this time. I have read that once you have had the procedure that I had done the last time done it is very unusual to see changes in ur cells again. Well this was my 6 months after smear that I have had the results that I have changes again. I find this stuff difficult to talk about but I’m OK writing it here for some reason. So I have this incredible panic that it’s going to be the dreaded C word when I go back to the hospital and I know this is a silly way to think but it’s true. I’m also really concerned that I’m never going to have kids. With having PCOS and my mum going through menopause at 30 and with having all these procedures that increase my risk or miscarriage I feel I have no hope and have now half convinced myself I don’t want kids but in reality that sooo not true. I know I do...just not yet but I feel the pressure is on... 

I kinda got off track there and this has nothing to do with weight loss...but I know u guys care and understand.

My weigh: This is really frustrating me now. I know I have to work harder but it’s just so hard u know!! God I sound so stupid.... of course it’s hard. It’s just way harder than I ever imagined it would be...but if it was easy I would have done it by now eh?
I guess I just needed a rant - if you got to the end of this post well done and thank you xxxx

PS - I was in Ireland a few weeks ago and will have some photos online soon So I will make sure to add them on here :) xx

Onderland!!

Hey guys, How are you all doing??

Well I hit onderland again this week after my gain last week :))

I'm now down to 198.2 :) How actual excited was I? My first monthly challenge ends this week and even though I haven't hit my goal I am well chuffed with myself and what I have achieved this month and all the thanks I am getting from the participants has been great :)

I am now running two challenges this month.

1: The same as March challenge - Weigh loss.
2: 30 Day Shred. 

These both start on the 1st of April and I am excited to get "stuck in" to them both. 

This week is a wee bit crazy for me again; X factor last night, Flawless tonight and plans for 2morw, Thur, Fr and Sat :s he he busy busy :)  

So as promised here are some pics of the script gig :)

My first step back :(

Hey guys, just a wee quick update.


I finally hit onderland on Friday the 18th!! I was sooo excited - every one congratulated me  - I feel like I have cheated them. I had an awful weekend! Well I had a busy, amazing weekend in terms of my life, but in terms of weight loss it was an awful one.

When I weighed on Monday - it made me feel awful - I was used to the scale going down not up! But I know it was my choices that made it do it - I was angry with myself :(


Then I got back on track Monday even though I had a hectic hectic day, then yesterday was just a disaster again! So my weigh in this morning was 201.6! I aim to be back at 200 by Monday - this will give me a bit of a sense of relief.


I will update again on Monday - with photos of the gig last night - which was AMAZING!!! :) xxx

The First Milestone

Hey guys! Well we are at Monday again?! How was every ones weekend? I think I did not too bad over it - considering we went out for a meal on Friday night and went to the cinema. I did have a few little treats last night but that doesn't seem to have affected my weigh in today! I was down to 200!! I'm so excited! This is my first milestone in my weight loss as that is a stone lost! My goal of 199 by 17th march looks achievable now. I'm not quite sure what I have done this week for such a big loss but I'm not going to argue. I know I pushed really hard at curves this week so I'm going to try and keep that momentum up going forward.

You may be wondering - who is that in the picture with you? Well That's my best friend Sarah - she lives about 300 miles away and is coming to visit me this weekend and we have tickets to go and see The Script on Tues - this was my xmas prezzie form her and my boyfriend Dan. She is my inspiration this week as I'm going to have to be really good all week until she gets here! Dan has decided he is treating us to a Chinese take away on Sunday night after she arrives so I'm gonna have to bust my bum all week to enjoy that on Sunday - I don't want to be moaning all the way through eating it - ohh I shouldn't be eating this as I want them 2 to enjoy it :)

I hope every ones week goes well - whats that I can smell is it onderland??? mmm.... xxxx



My first post

Well my journey all started really on the 7th Feb - so just over a month ago! I started using a website called My Fitness Pal. Its free and its great. Please check it out - http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ my user name is xxx_Pink_Princess_xxx. The site really motivated me and on the 1st of March I started a challenge - I now have more than 100 people taking part. It will end on the 1st of April. My view with this was to see people encouraging and motivating each other and having a place to go when they logged in to speak with each other. The site allow you to track your weight and measurements and also keep a food diary.

Once I had found this site and decided to do something about my eating habits, I then decided some exercise will need to be followed also. I joined curves on the 14th Feb. I am now also doing a Kettle bell class which kills me every week.

I am at the very beginning of a long journey and I hope you will follow me as I progress.

The woman in the photo above has what/who has inspired me! She is an angel - the best person in the world she is my mum!! xxxxx